I recently stumbled on my old myspace page, (Archaic, I know), and found this blog post I wrote as a senior in high school. I figured I would write another post detailing my thoughts as a senior in college, four years later. Here is the original post:
Feb 28, 2009
Three Months until Graduation. (and counting)
Everyday it’s harder to get up and go to school in the morning.
I don’t know any senior who can’t relate to that.
This has absolutely nothing to do with being upset, because trust me, life is GOOD right now. So good, maybe too good.
I am just so eager to graduate, spend one last summer with my friends, and just start over new.
I’m not quite sure the point of this blog, but do my blogs ever have a point?
Life has changed so much, Jr. High seemed like yesterday. We would have done ANYTHING to be in the position we are in right now back then. At least I would have. Some people haven’t changed, make the same old mistakes and still wonder why bad results happen to them. That sucks, but we can’t run from growing up forever. No matter how tough we think we are the real world is going to bitch slap us in the face someday, most likely multiple times.
Anyway, I’m starting to imagine living in a different place then here. There is a big difference between saying and actually doing something. I know, I know, it’s just Philly, only about an hour and a half down the road, but still. I use to absolutely hate it here back in the day, could not wait to leave. Probably because I made it that way. I still can’t wait, not really because I hate this place, but because I just want to experience a new place, with new people. I actually have grown very fond of this area. It’s the place I’ve grown up, nothing will ever change that.
The world is so much bigger then just us. Some of us like to think we are the center of the universe. Well our own universe anyway. Obviously we were put on this little green and blue sphere in the middle of no where for a reason. There is much we don’t, and were never meant to understand.
Everyone always says how hard it is going to be when everyone parts ways for college. I don’t know, of course leaving people you’ve known for a long time is hard, but I can honestly say I’m not going to sweat it. Maybe my opinion will change when august rolls around. I’m lucky enough to have most of my closer friends going to Philly schools too. Sadly, we might grow apart too. I’m not dismissing or permitting the idea yet. Who knows.
Life is a freaking roller coaster…things you thought could never happen, happen randomly, and things you thought would last forever, dont.
Like most of us, I can say a small part of me will miss the comfort of home, Wilson High School, and even Berks County. I think breaking that comfort zone and moving on to different places, even if there are some metaphorical bitch slaps along the way, will result in a better, more rounded person.
As for me, I’m going to enjoy the rest of my school year, bask in the summer air, and then I’m peacin out. Hopefully to make something of myself.
Good luck with your life.